”I don’t deserve this!”
Usually when this statement is uttered, it is from a star on the big (or small) screen, who has just been dealt a bad hand. The love of their life has left them. They lost a job. A nasty rumor had foiled a plan they were counting on.
Or maybe it was uttered by a dramatic teen when they didn’t get their way with their parents or they didn’t get invited to “that” party.
But have you ever looked at the opposite side of the “I don’t deserve that” coin. I have two wonderful boys, a thoughtful husband who loves me without fail, and an extended family who is supportive and caring. I have a circle of friends I can call on at anytime for just about anything. I believe God created me, loves me, and saved me. I have a really good life.
I am not perfect. I am overweight, a little lazy, slightly addicted to my iPhone and other gadgets, and I am a little self centered.
When I take an honest look at my life - the good, the bad and the ugly- I know truly, I don’t deserve this. I am not depressed. I am not feeling down in the dumps. I am feeling blessed beyond measure. When I look at my boys and how much they have grown, the young men they have become - I am amazed. When I think that I have been joyously married to the man I love for 21 years, I am in wonder. When I think of my church family and all my friends, I am humbled.
For all my mistakes and short comings, my failures and thoughtlessness, my life is incredible.
I don’t deserve it. I am thankful for all of it.
